where i'll find my peace.

Sunday, October 17, 2010
4:49 AM

its been a part of me and I'll let the memories stay where they were.

i've moved over to http://www.refreshedwithtwentyseven.blogspot.com/

thanks for being a fellow follower and i'll see you over there!

Tuesday, February 09, 2010
10:51 PM

its damn fuck when you got to present tmr when you are only notified today.
and the fact that i just presented last week.
your boss apologises for making you present 2 weeks in a row.
but you cannot say anything and just act damn fucking cool about it.
wasted my whole afternoon processing blood and nothing else is done.
sometimes i wonder when is my last straw.
although i am so raising the white flag but i know nothing is gonna change to my life till the day i give that R letter.

i just changed my account password today AND I FORGOT THE PASSWORD and i need to check my mail now for some info and i can't.
how much more fucked up can this day get.

i am damn stressed.
help.

Wednesday, February 04, 2009
4:47 PM

time to take a break for a moment before i've figured out what life really means and if everything i've ever been doing were ever that worth it.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009
4:35 PM

stop to listen.

its like the sudden phonecall that you receive weeks ago.
just from the rumblings of a good friend.
who has lost his way somehow.
after everything.

and now,
I seem to be caught in the same vicious circle too.
rushing the days.
losing the old standing.
losing the essence of what was in the beginning too.

thats why we all need a focus.
and what we all want to achieve.
days just run past,
and i am still the confused little soul on earth.

Monday, January 05, 2009
9:08 AM

back to reality with the new year resolutions in progress.

my boy just left last night.
and I havent heard from him since this morning.
cos SQ was behind the scheduled time by almost an HOUR!
its suppose to land at 10.05am (melb time) but the website stated the actual time was 10.52am (melb time). omg.
guess he just collected his barang and trying to get starbus home now.

new year resolutions are still in progress.
with so many thoughts in my head that it has gotta be on a piece of paper before it fades away.

[sis and ger came along to send him off too..]

[his mom and a hk friend's son who is studying in sing]

[part of the melb gang, may and yvonne]

[after he went in, i went to the other end of the airport to catch him inside the departure lounge. and we tried taking a pic through the glass! sob sob.]

I'll miss you my darling.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008
12:50 PM

when you take a step back.

the rules of the game still stands.
just additional ones added.
ironically, i'd wished a step was taken back.
what you hoped for may not seem to be as wonderful as you expect it to be.

the silence is deafening in the midst of a crowd,
and feeling colder than in winter in a sauna.

fighting for a decent place to stand.
i treasure my space.
a decent space where i'm given to breathe.

Friday, December 12, 2008
10:43 AM

when "cranberry" and "benjamin" finally reunites.

while rushing at 100km/h, i thought i'll almost lose the chance to catch the anticipation that awaits.
the drive felt so long. as i saw the plane flew inland above me.

i had my "benjamin" standing there waiting while he had his "cranberry" tucked in his bag for 7 hours.

looking at students coming out from their respective flights, perth, melbourne etc.
it felt like yesterday.
the time capsule of 7hours, inflight entertainment and planning how you'll wanna spend your hols before the next torture semester awaits.
the feeling of returning and the usual grumbling of oh so hot..
its an experience.

his baggage was 49 kg (thank goodness the lady at the check-in counter was nice). all thanks to my leftover stuff at his place which I couldn't bring back.
haha..
now my boots (which i'll look like a toot wearing in sing),
stationary (can set up a shop) etc have all come home.
even my hot flask mug reminded me of the torturous 8am lessons, while i walked along the streets holding it to keep warm in the cold wind, which i contained my usual mocha to last the morning.
everyone who has gone and come back will know what i mean.
the experience is unforgetable.

seeing him home is like bringing a part of melbourne home to me.
(:
welcome home darling!

Thursday, December 11, 2008
9:11 AM

in 11 hours time. (:

Wednesday, December 10, 2008
2:54 PM

o-n-e. (:

as the days draw nearer,
i grow more eager.
The excitement is difficult to hide,
the anticipation is high.
- leele tian.

h[R] is a Ghostbuster says:
tmr u will see Arnold Lee Letian (with muscles) hahahha
- the forever joker hongrui, LOL.

well well,
in 30 hours time,
you'll be able to hold my hand,
while i drive. (:

Wednesday, December 03, 2008
12:52 PM

when it gets you.

i believe there is an Obama in every organisation.
to fight the fire despite the long winding journey ahead.
and keeping to the standards of perfection.

i'm a perfectionist.
i want things prim and proper.
so much so it gets tiring.
keeping track every single thing along the way.
its just a matter of until when?

sometimes you want to push beyond the limitations of what you can provide,
but get dismayed by what you cannot produce.
if only.
if only.
if only, and that will only remain an if.

quarter-life crisis maybe.
my composure remains.

Sunday, November 16, 2008
3:56 PM

daddy's 60th.

this is quite a belated post though.. the bday dad had celebrations at jumbo with seafood & ktv as well.. (:

the annual strawberry cake that the chows never get sick of from galacier. haha..

the cousins in action.

the entire clan of the night.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008
2:37 PM

life in a whole new world.

since the emails are going quiet and the phone is turning silent,
much of a drastic change, I'm working in a dental clinic now as a dental assistant..
working there for just a few weeks to familiarise myself with the stuff so as to help dad in his office. will probably be doing sales soon..

working as a d.a has been quite interesting. seeing all sorts of patients and different cases and the stuff they use.. how the backstage preparations goes before all the pretty facade is presented each visit.. sometimes it does get quite stressful too when the dentist wants things fast and you are just running around mixing stuff here and there. thankgoodness the cute dentists (lol. dun worry my darling (: ) and nurses are patient with me..

okies, week 2 to go.

the flu has managed to subside after a change of medication.
but the cough is still lingering around, and i am getting annoyed.
raah.

as the days are drawing near, its down to 25 days. ((:
but before that, theowee is gonna be back this upcoming weekend!

Friday, November 07, 2008
1:04 AM

damn the flu bug.

sometimes you just don't wanna do anything.
hoping you could just camp in a cave and shut the world out.
then you begin to wonder what everything is all about.
whether some friends were ever worth keeping or fighting for.

as the parents begin their usual nags,
they'll just pinpoint any usual possible reason for the cause of the sickness.
late nights
going out
etc etc.
the best part was none of the above was what i've done.
so mom just said. must be "home"sick.
lol.
meaning melbourne home sick.
tell me about it man.
sleeping too much gives me weird dreams about melbourne.
one day i dreamt of mom saying she'll sponsor my airtic to melbourne if i do smth.
no, i dreamt of it twice.
then weirdly i saw my sis and bocky were all ready to go with me..
and all the plans for giving my darling the surprise visit.
another time was i dreamt i was melbourne but it looked like singapore with all the SBS buses and no trams. tried to make my way to the boys place but before i could get there i woke up.
damn it was a dream. ):
ok, i don't think i am home sick. i am lovesick.

i think the flu is making me topsy turvy.
roar.

Tuesday, November 04, 2008
2:46 PM

wheeeee.

he managed to get a seat on an earlier date after being on the waitlist!
so its gonna be 6 days earlier! ((((:

now now. 37 days to goooo.

i've been down with the flu bug and cough.
roar. super sian man. sometimes sleeping 12 hours doesn't seem enough, not when you wake up every 4 hours.

to all those having exams now..
hang in there and its gonna be over soooon.
(:
and it'll be time to party!

ps. for your info, the titanic the sequel video is a fake. did you realise the snap shots were from the movies that leonardo filmed in? romeo & juliet, catch me if you can, blood diamond etc.. haha..

Monday, November 03, 2008
4:33 PM

I'm baaack.

Shanghai was fun and not so fun, probably because I couldn't find what I was looking for.
I made mummy walk with me all over the place, from train stations to stations, changing lines, and squeezing with the ever rowdy crowd.

the winter season is coming and all the clothes were for the cold.. if only i was going back to melbiee and I would have bought a whole lot of them.

I guess the interesting thing was the dental exhibition.. quite an eye opener though..
will post the pics soon!

Check this titanic: the sequel video.
and let me know your comments! LOL.

Titanic: The Sequel

And this is one emo toy man.

Tickle Me Emo

Tuesday, October 28, 2008
9:32 PM

off to shanghai this week!

finally getting outta hot hot singapore to autumn shanghai.
hope its all nice.
taking out all my coats, scarfs and gloves, which makes me so wanna fly back to melbourne again.

by the time i head to the airport AGAIN will be the day that we've been counting down for.. (:
and i can't wait. 43 days to go.

oh yea, i just made bookings on jetstar and its cheap cheap cheap deals!
promotion going on now so do take a look if you wanna head off for a getaway! (:

okies, i'll be away till sat so just drop me an sms if there is anything urgent!
till then.
ta.

Monday, October 27, 2008
2:58 PM

my graduation photos!

Its finally here! (: Click on the picture to view more in FB!

Saturday, October 18, 2008
8:22 PM

its been a long time.
and i'm back to whine and roar again.

its been a whirlwind.
with so many uncertainties.
sometimes i think i'm going through a midlife crisis.
or maybe i do just think too much.

you'll never realise you've changed,
till the day you no longer enjoy the things you used to do.
expectations changing.
probably a transition phase of growing up.
because its not something you can control or you'll know where the end point is.
not like you'll know the end of november means freedom from exams.

maybe i'm just impatient.
or just worried over the smallest things that can happen.
or stressing over the unknown that is about to happen.

on another note,
friendships can be a touchy issue when it comes down to being stuck in the middle.
being neutral may be the best policy,
as one can see the biaseness on both sides which could deter one's judgement for the other.
and thats how misunderstandings occur, for one who was never given the chance to explain,
and this then takes me down to memory lane 2005.

p.s i guess its time for a change. including my blogskin which has been faithfully there for 1.5 years. although i'll still very much hope to leave it there.

Friday, September 12, 2008
4:37 PM

you'll know when you still miss
when..

your brain still tunes two hours ahead.
the weather still annoys you to the max.
the countless mad rush with more aunties/uncles that are even more annoying.
how realistic life goes here.
the little gatherings that you'd wish you could just walk over and join.

heard from darling there is gonna be a mooncake festival gathering tonight with the genetics and biochem gang. aww. wish'd i could just join them too.

oh well. its different when you don't need to create the atmosphere cos its just all around you and you are just oblivious to it.

i dont know why you returned me the lil notes,
but you did get me thinking.
the flashbacks told the story all over again.
and thats the end of the chapter.

Monday, September 01, 2008
2:24 PM

i'm back!
for good.

i've finally left my melbourne for singapola.
leaving behind my darling, the bros and the melbiee gang.

its 14 weeks till his return for christmas.
and another surprise visit! =)))

been working for dad till i've found a proper job.. so its been super tiring though..
sleep is never enough.. roar.
and melb is gonna be 3 hours ahead soon. =(

i'll slowly meet up with the singapola gangs and my number stays the same! (:

time flies slowly and its only been a week.
i'd just wish its was just like every other day
for the blissful 44 days where we just snuggled to dreamland.
you'll always be a part of me.
darling cos you'll always be my baby.